Cara Delevingne a model-actress has revealed that she had a mental breakdown when she was in school and contemplated ending her life. The 23-year-old “Paper Towns” star said she put so much pressure on herself when she was in school.
“I think I pushed myself so far (at school) that I got to the point where I had a mental breakdown. I was completely suicidal, I didn’t want to live any more. I thought that I was completely alone. I also realised how lucky I was, and what a wonderful family and wonderful friends I had, but that didn’t matter. I wanted the world to swallow me up, and nothing seemed better to me than death.”
She credited her friends Kate Moss for “picking me up off the floor”. “What happened was I eventually said no, and I eventually took a break, from the advice of Kate Moss, who kind of picked me up off the floor. It’s about finding people around you who have your best interests at heart. I had a lot of people around me who were just after what I gave them… Not looking after me. So it’s about finding people who care about you and support you. And I’ve now been able to become a support for other people, as well,” she added
In a recent interview she disclosed about how her friend Kate Moss helped her suffering a skin disease in her early stage of the career and the reason was hectic working schedule and despite turning to medical skin experts it was finally her friend who helps rather rescued her from that trauma.
“I had no concept of saying no to anyone, ever. After a while, I got sick and got a condition called psoriasis. I felt disconnected from myself, but my agency simply shoved me into a doctor’s surgery, where I got cortisone shots, but – in reality – I wanted someone to stop me, but nobody did.I never felt like I was good enough, that I deserved success. I felt like I was living somebody else’s dream. Kate Moss saved me – she stepped in and picked me up off the floor at a stressful time,” she said and eventually she turned into writing and yoga for dealing with stress.
“At that point I started writing and found yoga. At first I just did it superficially because I wanted to be flexible, but when I first started seeing my tutor I broke through something,” the “Paper Towns. We were both chanting and I suddenly burst into tears. I looked at him (the tutor) thinking he was a monster – an evil man – for making me cry. But he just laughed.”
“See, it wasn’t him at all, it was me. Now, we still practice together and I’ve evolved as a person,” she added.